Wow you are 7.5 months old now. What a ride we've been on. You are amazing. Honestly, mummy has struggled and I'm sorry. When you cry (scream) and I have no idea what is wrong, it kills me, nobody has any answers for us. Nobody can help us, you are obviously in pain but we can't find a reason. I am sorry, I am trying so very hard to help you.
You now weigh 5.3kg and I have a feeling its only going to go up from here, I am so proud of you. You started crawling a month ago, you are so tiny that its disgustingly cute to see you chase your brother around. Ah! Your brother, he loves you so much. I watch you both interact it warms my heart to know you are loved so much. He will always be there for you, sometimes it might not seem like it, but I see how he looks at you, cares for you. He told me last night "Harper and me and best friends when we grow"
We love you Harper. Daddy, Mummy & Mason, we love you so terribly much. I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. You are screaming out to us and we don't understand, I hope that you can feel us, you can sense that we are working on it.
Have I told you lately I'm proud of you. Did you know the doctors told us that we most likely wouldn't get to hold you in our arms. Did you know that not only did we get to hold you, but you were born so perfect. Tiny, but perfect. I cry out of guilt for having a hard time struggling with all this, when in reality things could of been so much worse. You are a joy.
I love you all day.
Mummy.
